May 2012
14 posts
I just want to feel something that is not this.
I’m waiting and waiting and it never comes.
When your own boyfriend ditches you, dosent reply...
The places I find happiness are always strange.
Finding comfort in things I know aren’t reality.
April 2012
83 posts
Being ditched by my boyfriend
sleeps in, forgets, dosent fucking bother, same old fucking story. Had enough of such a unreilable person
karma-is-watching asked: hope you're okay baba, i'm here if you want me!xxx
Despise being alive.
It’s just constant stress, i never go out anymore. All i do is sit in and do work, nobody ever fucking rings me, i could have fucking moved to Antarctica for all anyone notices. Sick of being so fucking disguisting, it fucking sickens me. I’ll never fucking be good enough because everyone else is so fucking gorgeous and i’m nothing. Recently something happend, and people knew,but...
Had a awful day today.
I think i need to choose who i spend time with wayyyyyyyy more carefully, i’m left with no one, but I’d rather be like that than be the way I was before. Hate manipulation. Just want to curl up and die. I feel like i’ve wasted so much time, and thats the thing i hate the most. Sick of being treat like shit, were no good for eachother.
Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
“The color of the horizon I was looking at… was a color I had never seen before in my life. It was a new color to the visible-light spectrum, it was every color and no color, all in one. I could clearly see purple, blue, green, and even yellow, all mixed into one”
Fucking love reading about people drug experiences...
“ A slang term for 2C-B was dubbed ‘Nexus’ when it became popular in the early/mid 90’s, and I realized why. The dictionary definition of that word is ‘A means of connection, a link or tie.’ and ‘The core or center’, and that made perfect sense to me. I was the center of the universe in which everything around me was linked to one another. Every...
I'm trying to be more positive lately, I don't...
It’s more of a understanding that some things I can’t change, then again nothings set in stone. I’m sure it’s far too late though.
I’m always so unsure of how to express myself, I’m worried I’m giving the wrong impression. Fixating on ideas is my main problem, I get too carried away. maybe I just seen people in a brighter light than I should? I’ve...
Its strange how quickly things change
The things you don’t want to, of course. Everything else is so unexciting. Things were almost perfect this time exactly last year. Wishing things were different will never do any good though, I already know that. It’s just seems like everyone’s life’s are changing for the better, while mine remains the way it always has. Dull. I’m bored of feeling nothing.
